ambition ………

i don’t know what went wrong growing up but i have never had much ambition ……i have always been the type of person to work whatever job i could get to make money  never really making good money. I only went back to school because i was getting paid more than what i was earning working. i have realized recently maybe i don’t have ambitions because i never did .Whats wrong with me???????when i was in school and carreer day crap came around . I thought who needs a career ,I don’t as a kid i wanted to be a drug dealer of all things because they had everything i ever wanted nice cars ,clothes,women ,money hell i even known some to have nice houses.when i was 17 i started on my path to being a drug dealer it was good only sold weed …. Money isn’t in weed unless you move it by the pound i did good until i started seeing friends going to jail for really long times by the time i turned 18 i gave up on that business because i cherished my freedom . now 8 years later i have the same dream but i am not pursuing it . I wish i was like a normal person with  ambitions that are good and positive….