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man of action

i have started to come to the realization that i have screwed the first part of my life up.i was talking with someone yesterday about high school memories and realized shit i have had my high school diploma for  9 years now . I then started thinking about what i have to show for my “adulthood”at the age of 26 i own a 1991 dodge spirit that the paint started coming off of in 1992. no kids of my own …..I do love the kid i am raising as my own,i have never had credit  but i have bad credit ……about 3 grand in past medical bills because i only had insurance for 6 monthes as a adult,a judment against me for 5 grand  …damm that fender was expensive…..a warrant for my arrest in another state over a 600 dollar ticket in a oldsmobile(would you believe i wasn’t going faster than 35 m.p.h. )no emplyoment in the past year and ahalf as i going back to school. went to college 3 times but still no degree or at the rate i am going i won’t finish this time.  4 wisdom teeth that i havent had the “wisdom”(money) to get rid of,and living in a now hore town that has lost 1000’s in jobs in the last five years as the U.S. don’t make anything anymore. Overall my problems all fall down to one overall main problem i have had . Social interaction, i hate people in general i know thats a bad thing but i was rasied into being this way.why couldn’t my parents been honest with me . they told me my future was in all the reading and schoolwork .at 26 i really learned the truth …….it’s not what you know ,its who you know.  and rule 2  don’t forget to fuck over as many people as you have to to get ahead .  yeah so much for rule 2 and me  as i am the one to get fucked…..so i hope to be a man of action  next year . I hope by this time next year my life is improved  some of my finacial matters have been dealt with and in general progressing is a postive forward motion ……… this realization has been inspired by Jay-z’s song off the album Kingdom come  , 30 is the new 20