man of action

i have started to come to the realization that i have screwed the first part of my life up.i was talking with someone yesterday about high school memories and realized shit i have had my high school diploma for  9 years now . I then started thinking about what i have to show for my “adulthood”at the age of 26 i own a 1991 dodge spirit that the paint started coming off of in 1992. no kids of my own …..I do love the kid i am raising as my own,i have never had credit  but i have bad credit ……about 3 grand in past medical bills because i only had insurance for 6 monthes as a adult,a judment against me for 5 grand  …damm that fender was expensive…..a warrant for my arrest in another state over a 600 dollar ticket in a oldsmobile(would you believe i wasn’t going faster than 35 m.p.h. )no emplyoment in the past year and ahalf as i going back to school. went to college 3 times but still no degree or at the rate i am going i won’t finish this time.  4 wisdom teeth that i havent had the “wisdom”(money) to get rid of,and living in a now hore town that has lost 1000’s in jobs in the last five years as the U.S. don’t make anything anymore. Overall my problems all fall down to one overall main problem i have had . Social interaction, i hate people in general i know thats a bad thing but i was rasied into being this way.why couldn’t my parents been honest with me . they told me my future was in all the reading and schoolwork .at 26 i really learned the truth …….it’s not what you know ,its who you know.  and rule 2  don’t forget to fuck over as many people as you have to to get ahead .  yeah so much for rule 2 and me  as i am the one to get fucked…..so i hope to be a man of action  next year . I hope by this time next year my life is improved  some of my finacial matters have been dealt with and in general progressing is a postive forward motion ……… this realization has been inspired by Jay-z’s song off the album Kingdom come  , 30 is the new 20

11 hours in line………

Woohoo I survied the crazieness called black friday i think there was only about 2000+ people pissed behind me at Best Buy in Hickory  who didn’t get the deal that they wanted . I did manage to get the pc that best buy had on sale and i even got the western digital 250 gig external hard drivei was unable to find the 100 stack of dvd-r that was advertised for $ 4.99  that shit went quick. we did get to take some pictures but i am still to tired to even mess with them .

this is the year of…..

this is the year of consumers standing outside in line for some product or deal…..First it was the ps3 ……No i didn’t stand in line for a 600 dollar machine that i was not going to get …Then it was the Wii……..No I didn’t stand for a crappy nintendo ….When will Nintendo learn that the new era of gaming involves using your machine to watch movies and play cd’s …. But today i will be standing in line in front of my local best buy for a computer..I have 4 now but i need a new one. Best buy has this deal :

eMachines 352 Desktop with 15″ Flat-Panel LCD Monitor & Photo Printer

Save $385 instantly on this sensible PC package (T3522, E15T4B, iP1700).

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* Save big on powerful productivity features for those home, work and school projects and just for fun
* Intel® Celeron® D processor 352 with Intel® EM64T enhancement, 512MB PC4200 DDR2 memory, DVD-ROM/CD-RW drive, 100GB hard drive and Intel® Graphics Media Accelerator 900
* 15″ flat-panel LCD monitor with fast 16 ms response time, 400:1 contrast ratio and antiglare screen coating
* Compact PIXMA photo printer with ChromaLife100 technology for long-lasting, borderless 4″ x 6″ photos
* Save $385! (Reg. price $574.97 – $385 total bundle instant savings = $189.97)
* Best Buy’s Bundle Return Policy applies to this PC package purchase.so if your in Hickory North Carolina tonight the first person in line should be me

ambition ………

i don’t know what went wrong growing up but i have never had much ambition ……i have always been the type of person to work whatever job i could get to make money  never really making good money. I only went back to school because i was getting paid more than what i was earning working. i have realized recently maybe i don’t have ambitions because i never did .Whats wrong with me???????when i was in school and carreer day crap came around . I thought who needs a career ,I don’t as a kid i wanted to be a drug dealer of all things because they had everything i ever wanted nice cars ,clothes,women ,money hell i even known some to have nice houses.when i was 17 i started on my path to being a drug dealer it was good only sold weed …. Money isn’t in weed unless you move it by the pound i did good until i started seeing friends going to jail for really long times by the time i turned 18 i gave up on that business because i cherished my freedom . now 8 years later i have the same dream but i am not pursuing it . I wish i was like a normal person with  ambitions that are good and positive….

long time no post……..

been a while since i posted here  …… got my network finnaly fixed  . but i have been to busy with school and playing halo 2 on my xbox360 to post anything . update on the sonoma i had to sell it it because the engine blew agin  2 times in less than a year  damm i’m hard on vehicles  just kidding i really dont know what happend  but needless to say the truck wound up costly me 1600 in cost  traded the body for 4 kicker comp  12 in  subwoofers and a kenwood 1700 watt amp  wound up selling the subs for about 200 dollars kept the amp . so over all 1400 dollars got me a 400 dollar amp and about 1200 miles in the truck that was one expensive truck .

general stuff

well i have started feeling a little better ,still not up to the best of shape. the kid seems to be getting a little better too..thats good cuz she needs to go back to head start tommorow. i heard a interesting tidbit yesterday …….. only 10 % of blogs survive longer than 3 monthes .seems to been proven pretty true just with my past history …. good thing ths blog just broke the 3 month barrier. i am suppose to get my truck tomorrow still wont be fixed i thought about boosting the insurance on it a turning it into the biggest smore maker that i ever seen but i have hope i think i finaaly found a engine for it

busy few days

we get our pell grants next week  which for us is better than christmas.  we have been out car shopping this week we haven not decided if were are going to get another car or not  we already have two . the sonoma is going into the shop on monday to see how expensive it is going to be to fix it  i hope it wont be too bad. i did see a new toy to replace it a older square body s10 with the v8 conversion its nice.i dont know if i am going to try to get it yet or not. i still need to call the dentsist and see how much it is to get atleast those top wisdom teeth taken care of them .the one on the left side of my mouth is really gotten to be very painful . i still have a ton of schoolwork to do this weekend and sinc e i have gotten the dvd burner i have been making a lot of movies i really need to get my head focused back on school ,i have missed tooo much time already this semster i just dont like haveing to wait at the school…….

its hump day

well just got done with the first part of the school week.Its been a pretty busy week .I still dont feel good seems like the whole house is coming down with this damm cough.Yesterday i got pulled over a gave a warning ticket for having a taillight out (still need to get it fixed)but for some reason i had to have the car searched for drugs ,weapons it sucked and it was a waste of time. I do smoke weed but i am smart enought not carry anything on me when i’m out. i think that the police are watching me because this is the same officer that pulled me and fiance over just three weeks ago and gave me a seatbelt ticket.how many bullshit charges can they throw on me?i think if i have tooo many more run ins with this officer me and him i will look into harrassment charges.

homework weekend

well if i can ever get motivated i will be haveing a homework weekend, i have hw  that i have to do for english and net110 if i can get that stuff done i would like to work some on my math,i am ahead in the class so the farther ahead i work the quicker the teacher will let me get the class done early.i still dont feel good i think that some of the reason i dont feel well has to do with my wisdom teeth. i have needed to see a dentist to get them pulled for a long time and i am hoping that i will be able to get that taken care of before too much longer.

rough week

i have had a bad week . i have been coming down sick and been missing time at school. i need to get into a good rythm again. second week at school and i have miseed 3 days in both my english and math classes and 1 day in my net 126 class. not a good start  on the blogshares front i have started selling bonds again i have made about 60 billon in the last day but i have been spending alot of the money on buying links.this blog is less than a month old and i have just about 30 incoming links so this blog is growing.